Struggling with one’s shadow self
I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.
–The apostle Paul writing to all God’s beloved in Rome.
Richard Rohr writes: “Struggling with one’s own shadow self, facing interior conflicts and moral failures, undergoing rejection and abandonment, daily humiliations, experiencing any kind of abuse, or any form of limitation: all are gateways into deeper consciousness and the flowering of the soul. These experiences give us a privileged window into the naked now, because impossible contradictions are staring us in the face. Much needed healing, forgiving what is, “weeping over” and accepting one’s interior poverty and contradictions are normally necessary experiences to invite a person into the contemplative mind.” (Naked Now, 125)
1. In what ways have I been aware of my interior poverty and contradictions?
2. What is the relationship between struggling with my “shadow self” and the “flowering of the soul”?
3. Where is God in relation to my shadow self?